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03/06/2006 Archived Entry: "I can't stand it...!"

I just can't stand this. It's making my face burn with frustration. I'm trying to learn how to ink digitally using Photoshop and/or Illustrator and it's a nightmare. I've been trying off and on since I can't use a tablet to digitally ink using the pen tool with brushes following the stroke path. Photoshop 7 has brushes that 6 doesn't have, unfortunately I've got 6 so I have to make do with what I've got.

I try... and I try... and still it looks shoddy. What am I doing wrong? That's what I'd like to know.

People are blowing me off, which is what's worse. Maybe it's just my own paranoia kicking in again, but it's kind of annoying to be ignored whenever I post something. It's just been an utterly frustrating day. I feel like such a failure today. A complete and utter waste.

I wish I could do at least ONE goddam thing right today before it's out. It's enough to make me cry.