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08/23/2005 Archived Entry: "Struck with Melancholy"

I've just been struck with this bittersweet meloncholy. All these friends I've lost due to some thing or another.

Where have they gone? Do they even remember me? Would they even care to?

I know I haven't forgotten them. Some of them see me on AIM and active and still don't drop a friendly note. I've tried, only to get a one word acknowledgement and then.... nothing. Flatline. Was it worth even saying "hello"?

I'm starting to not be able to deal with that anymore. It's almost like they died. Or worse, they're ghosts who only speak when they've got to push the people in the living realm to get things done for them.

But it just drives me to tears at night, it makes me that sad.

I wish I knew what I'd done, at least. And what I could do to fix it.