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10/25/2004 Archived Entry: "I must be out of my mind..."

I must be out of my mind or it's my "biological clock" or something but...

Today we had a suprise baby shower for my co-worker's grand-daughter and... well, I'm female, married, and I'll be 25 next month. You kinda get to thinking about things like babies. I must be out of my mind to be thinking about kids when we've barely gotten to where we can support ourselves and our utilities. If we were making more money then maybe I'd...

I don't know, it just suddenly isn't so scary. But if I seriously want to consider having a baby then I think I need to get my ass in gear first! Maybe it's my medication kicking in or something, because usually when that happens I feel like I can take on anything. But even before that, John and I talk about "when we have kids" now more freely without being scared to death. I mean... I -want- to have at least one baby and 25-30 is a good time to start a family, no?

*chews on fingernails* I've got some thinking to do...